Trusting God is worth it... Always. Even when it hurts.

A letter from Daily Devotional for Women

I know I should just ignore it.

I know what I am doing is right and is a blessing to many.

But every time this accusation comes, I immediately fight to forgive, fight the spirit of offense, and fight the hurt that arises. No matter how much I try to be okay with it.

After opening up another free service for all subscribers (Sunday afternoon Live Prayer Session at 4 pm Eastern), I was accused of charging to preach the gospel, charging for the blessings I’ve received from God, and being untouched by the Lord.

This really is an attack by the enemy, but my life is not my own:

Every time the accusation pops up, I just want to cry. I feel the stab of the arrow and wonder if this is worth it. I have a business. I have been very successful. I could go back at any moment.

But I can’t. My life is not my own, and I committed to this work two years ago when God explicitly guided me to start writing Daily Devotionals again.

Before anyone knew what was happening

When I was alone at night, praying and writing devotionals.

As I struggled to get consistent and write daily

As I cried out to God to help me understand why this platform didn’t work like the other platforms.

He helped me to let the old man go and step into the new wineskin that operated differently, successfully breaking through and teaching other creative Christian women how to do this as well.

God is blessing the devotional and the training program for Christian women who want to launch on Substack. This is the gentle assurance I needed today, and I thank God for Yvonne investing in the program and believing God could bless her writing. This is HER win. Her breakthrough.

I simply followed God in making the program available. No matter how much the accusations hurt, I remember how much I prayed.

I stopped doing this, but God called me back.

I wrote.

I launched the prayer podcast.

I designed the covers. 484 times now.

I listened to how He wanted the publication structured.

I landed on a price for the long-form devotionals and then lowered it when led by God to do so.

I got better and better every day for two years.

I fought sleep and learned to make time in the mornings so I could rest, and my babies could sleep without me praying all hours of the night for women I would never meet.

When I decided after a year and a measly 240 prayers/devotionals that I really sucked at this and needed to go back to doing business and let this go, God called me back and told me to stick with it.

My son said to me: if you charge for your coaching based on how hard you work, why does this thing that keeps you up late into the night only cost $8?

I told him that this was different. This isn’t a coaching practice. It’s a calling, and obedience to God is greater than sacrifice.

So, yes. It hurts. Yes, I want to cry, and I think it’s okay to let myself feel the pain and just let the tears flow. Holding in the hurt doesn’t help me to process it, and it doesn’t help me to rise above the accusations from well-meaning Sisters in Christ who don’t have my assignment.

This work is worth it.

Trusting God is worth it.

He blesses me in other ways and has blessed me to slowly start working with clients again. Always keeping the Daily Devotional FIRST above everything (Matthew 6:33)

³³ But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. - Matthew 6:33

So no, I won’t stop praying

I will not stop the weekly live prayer call. It was a workout to pray for over 70 minutes for over a dozen different prayer requests.

I honestly don’t know how I will do it when more requests come in. But I know God will meet me at the edge of my faith and show me a better way.

I will not stop serving via the open and completely free services.

Last, I absolutely will not close the door to the women who desire to sow into good ground.

Michelle is doing the work too. And we don’t produce enough to pay her for Sip Saturdays, but she has been a great sport about it. That will change. I trust that God will continue to bless and grow our paid subscribers.

Thank you to our Paid Subscribers

These women, who decide to become paid subscribers, push the ministry forward to reach more women while getting daily live teaching, comprehensive (2,000-word) devotionals, and weekly printables in return for their monthly paid subscription.

Nothing else matters. Eventually, I will grow tougher skin around this, and the pain will be lessened. Maybe eliminated, if it’s God's will to heal the hurt.

In the meantime:

I want to thank you for the women who have said YES to becoming a paid subscriber. Each day, I pray earnestly over your seed for God to bless it and bring financial breakthrough into your life, career, and business. He has done through my business for a decade, and I know by Faith that He will do it for you.

If you would like to subscribe, you can do so here:

To those Women of God who can not afford to join for $8month

You don’t have to pay a dime for the ministry services we provide:

Prayer will always be free and sent directly to your email EVERY morning at 7am Eastern.

Prayer requests can be submitted here for the Sunday afternoon live prayer session at 4pm EST:

We also do an occasional evening devotional called The Night Light, which is free and open to everyone.

I am truly sorry if you ever felt that we would charge you for the gospel. That has never been and will never be the way we operate.